oh shit I didn't know about the ishimaru crying alone with pancakes thing and I didn't get it either but after thinking about it for like 20 minutes I realized it's not the pancakes, it's what's on the pancakes. this fandom is so fucked up and I'm upset now hahahah (faint sobbing through the laughter)
Thank you for explaining it to me, I feel silly for not getting it previously. But god dammit all fandom why hell are you doing this I’m in a state of major laughter and holding back tears because of this. Fuuuuuuuuuuuck.